In my humble opinion, anyone who has ever truly questioned the purpose of their existence, the purpose behind everything they do, why they do it, and how to change it if it doesn’t feel natural, most of those people have experienced a spiritual awakening on some level. There is no ultimate list of things you should feel while going through this experience and it can be extremely intense for Susan from another block and it can be way less daunting for you. As a matter of fact, you will probably go through several awakenings throughout your life. Especially if you practice mindfulness and nourish yourself as a being. People often feel anger during a spiritual awakening, therefore we are going to explore how to cope with it in the best way possible.
Is it possible that you are very new to the expression ‘spiritual awakening’? Well, in all honesty, I think that it will carry a slightly different meaning to every one of us. However, it really is what it sounds like.
It is usually a period in our lives when we start digging deeper and start asking more questions than ever before. We experience a shift in consciousness and start forming a new understanding of the Universe and everything that surrounds us. You can call it an existential crisis of some sort as you may feel like you want to change everything in your life, even your values might change. For some people this may be the most joyous period of their lives, for some, it may feel lonely, scary, and dark. Some people may feel completely numb and lost. Always remember that your experience is unique and nobody can judge you for it.
Today, however, I wanted to talk about anger during a spiritual awakening and my personal experience with it. This can often be a very sensitive topic for many people who have ever gone through it or are currently going through it. I often say that the topic of spirituality and the Law of Attraction carries a certain stigma around it. People are very quick to share all the high highs; however, not everyone feels the need to share the ugly parts of the process and why should they? Especially if you feel the pressure of your peers to practice what you preach.
I do want to encourage us all to be more honest with each other. We are all going through our own different experiences and honesty often brings a sense of relief to many of us. How amazing it is to know that you are not alone in this and that you don’t have to carry all this unnecessary weight on your shoulders.
I wanna hear everything about your best days. I wanna hear everything about your worst days as well.
SO! Back to the actual topic of this blog post – anger. You are definitely not alone if you are going through this and this definitely does not mean that you are a bad person. Honestly, from my experience, it is often accompanied by sudden bursts of joy, because you are hypersensitive during the period of enlightenment. You are probably experiencing anxiety, frustration, trembles, and shakes as well. But guess what, it’s a good thing, you are waking up. Even if it’s not your first rodeo, consider this experience as something that will take you even further into your journey. As I have mentioned in my Youtube video, my first awakening was very happy and chubby. However, my second awakening was way darker. Emotional turmoil and uncertainty were part of my ‘reality’ at the time. In comparison, my third awakening has even more colours which just proves that each experience is unique.
So how can you actually deal with anger during a spiritual awakening more gracefully?
Accept that it’s OKAY to feel this way.
In fact, it is more common than you think. Simply put, your awareness is heightened, your emotions are heightened and your sensitivity to absolutely everything is heightened. If you feel any frustrating emotions, they are going to be amplified. On top of that, your awareness makes you notice all of this way more frequently, therefore you start feeling even worse about your state of mind because you simply don’t want to feel like that, period. So here you go, you feel bad about you feeling bad. It sounds ridiculous, but it’s true.
So the first thing you need to do is to accept that it’s okay to feel miserable. Stop judging yourself, because you absolutely have to be your biggest cheerleader. At the end of the day, it only makes sense that the biggest transformations come from difficult times and something that goes down must always go up. Once you let go and accept that it’s normal, I promise you, you will instantly feel better.
Befriend whatever negative emotions you are feeling and allow yourself to process them.
Understanding why you are feeling the way you are feeling is very important. Sit with yourself and observe your thoughts with no judgement. Are you angry at yourself and life because you cannot afford to go to the university of your dreams? Are you frustrated because you can’t seem to find a partner that you have always been looking for? Perhaps you are anxious because you feel like you are not living the life that you are supposed to be living? Then ask why you feel this way. Could it be our society’s pressure? Maybe you constantly find yourself thinking that money is super difficult to obtain? And you have an unhealthy relationship with it? You want to change something in your life but nobody seems to support you?
Dig deep, but do it with love and do it when you’re ready. If you feel like today is not the day you want to be nitpicking your feelings, then don’t. Your frustrations are being brought to light for a reason and they are there to help you grow. This experience is there FOR you, it’s not playing against you. Invite it to your home and stop trying to shake your anger off, because it won’t go away unless you have a conversation with it. Consider doing some shadow work during this time and really look at the root of your negative feelings.
Do seek guidance.
The Internet is a wonderful place to meet like-minded people. Social media is full of people who are into spirituality, many wonderful spiritual teachers are ready to answer your questions. So don’t be shy, do your research, find a youtube video and post a comment asking if anyone has ever gone through anything like that. Believe me, nobody’s going to judge you and if they will, why would you even care? I GOT YOU. From my own experience, those who have taught me the most, have never judged me, because they understand that it’s not their place.
Know that you are in control.
Remember that you have the power to shift your emotions instantly. You control your reactions and you are strong enough to just stop for a second, take a couple of deep breaths, and calm down. If you are facing an argument with other people, you have the right to remove yourself from the situation. Especially before saying anything out of anger and then beating yourself up for it.
Plain and simple. Even if you cannot seem to relax and stop creating scenarios in your head, simply closing your eyes removes the external environment from your reality. It instantly helps you go within. Your brain won’t feel like it’s about to catch fire.
Talk to yourself.
Especially, if you feel angry at other people. This has helped me so many times! It may sound crazy and a bit coo-coo but it works. Let your tears roll and say anything you want to say to that particular person, don’t hold back. It really feels like a huge weight has been lifted off your shoulders. The next time you see that person, you will notice that your thoughts are well-centred and you express yourself more lovingly without creating an even bigger problem in your relationship. And hey, this is what I call taking back control.
Most importantly, trust the process. Everything happens for a reason. You are magical and you have way more power in you than you think. Anger does not define you.
Namaste. I am proud of you.